Hidden from common eyesight
Swooping down on winged flight
On the smiling wings of night
To land by your sleeping side

I can feel the blood rushing though my veins
When I hear your voice, driving me insane
Tease me, by holding out your hand
Then leave me, or take me as I am
We live our lives on different sides,
But we keep together you and I
Just decide...

'To Wish For Something Unattainable'... to wish for something like that... wouldnt you have to wait a long long time? haiz, and even if you wish it and it comes true, it may not be what you really want, right? *questions without expecting an answer* like when u finally get it, you realized that you would rather have something else, and that thing that you wanted... it's just not as prefect as you thought it had been... ok, i know that this sounds a little weird, coming from me, but then again... in the peacefullness of the night... disrupted sometimes by my sister who calls me to sleep... i feel... not at peace with the world certainly... but a certain respect for all those that live and are able to get and find some sort of meaning in life...

now, dun get me wrong... life aint as meaningless as i put it, it's just me who finds it meaningless

yy seems to have a strange fetish for red hair... even has a quote in her notebook... *Red hair drives me wild*
me?? *Blonde hair drives me wild* *grinz*
but but but... seriously, i think that blonde hair way does not go with anyone in singapore... soo... dun even think about dying your hair blonde.... brown maybe, brown hair on real life guys would most prob make me drool...

(josh arh... the above does not apply to you, your hair is only brown on the front fringe... so maybe, i might drool... just a little bit)
waitaminute, i'm too ladylike to drool, being ladylike, i'll wipe off my drool with a tissue, not my hand... *grinz*

yes... yy... now u can hear my scream at the top of my god damn voice... *hey yy...*... only one problem is that i think i might have gotten a sorethroat from camp.... so i guess u gotta wait a darn while b4 hearing my voice scream anything at all...

yupz... ok... so i also did this same test that yy did... since i sent it to her *rolls eyes* and i'm seriously hoping that it aint true.. ok.. the person i care most about is june (which i think seriously not true... june, dun b offended but i dun ant u to get a swelled head, it's for your own good)... the one who knows me best... is urmm... yy... and my lucky star is sonya... the song that tells me most about my mind... is *open up my mind*... figures that it's true.... quite freaky but true... would love to type more but i have to tape mvp for minghui and it's starting soon... if i dun tape it for her, i will DIE a most horrible death... she'll beat the crap outta me... actually i can also beat the crap outta her, but... i chose not to (always the lady) and i started taping late last week and amanda, ming's and me fren, advised me to learn kungfu in case of ming's beating... haiz bb...

so u c... i haf no free time for myself and i just wished that the holidays are going to be longer... i mean, it's already going to december and i gotta say that i have no urmm... accomplishments ... and worst of all, i cannot proudly say that there is one day in which i have actually managed to sleep in... i have always got to wake up at some ungodly hour because of school or guides...

like today for example, i have to wake up early to learn with my teamates how to use some computer stuff, so that we can be able to win the wee kim wee challenge... and let me tell you, guides dun really have much talent in computers, i think... and if we dun win... i shudder to think of the consequences... aniwae, i'm really too young to die...

i admit it to the whole wide stinking world... i missed yy... come on, where is she when you desperately need to be cheered up?? oh well, at least got grace...

i'm back... back from the torture chambers of hell... no, seriously, this year's camp is not as bad as last year's or the year before...i should be counting my lucky stars that i survived... but i felt the camp was way slack... it should have been stricter for the sec 1s... heeehee... at least they would be able to experience a REAl training camp... not the testwork camp that we had... let me tell you, the food was WAY better, juz enuf... not like the year they had the food catered... there was so much extras that my facilitator had to force-feed me baked beans... i did not eat any more baked beans after the camp for 3 months...

it was really quite fun sharing a tent with gladys, grace, geok, gwen... notice that it's all those ppl whose names start with G??? and also... weimin... but hor, i dun noe y, but everyone's nose seemed to be stuffed up, and they were trying their hardest to breathe in their sleep... and so... it was really loud, their breathing was... and i dunno y, but i suddenly become such a light sleeper in this camp that everytime their nose started to get blocked, and they sniffed really loudly, i would wake up... and then i'd have to spend the whole night listening to them snort in their sleep... ok, it wasnt that bad... so.. heehee, no offence anyone?? *sleepish grin* we certainly did have loads of fun before we went to bed...

and grace... she lost her plate that she brought to camp that she brought in denmark... and she was really annoyed... and whenever she saw the colour blue (her plate was blue) she would get really annoyed (in a joking manner) and then she said...*i'd rob a bank and give the money to the school so they can repaint the school from blue to another colour*... and then she also said *if i was prime minister, i'd ban the colour blue* and i was laughing quite urmm... hysterically...

arghh... juz read peggy's blog... and i wanna scream!!! she saw wang li hong... *cries and screams* opps... better stop wif the screaming coz my parents have enuf of me screaming everytime i see sanzo's pics... *sleepish grin* but but but... did u noe how cute li hong is.... i cant take it animore... mus scream!!!!!!!!!!! so cute... but but but... sanzo's still cuter... but in terms of real people... wang li hong has got to be rated higher than ani1 else...

"If you have no faith, it is because you don't own yourself. You let someone else decide how you're going to get screwed. Decide for yourself how you're going to get screwed. Some ways are fun."

conclusion: SO not me... therefore... it can be concluded that i did not write that... which is true...

now... sonya... and all others out there... but particularly sonya...
flirt like it's a god-given talent?? duncha think that flirting is urmm.. kinda mean? but then again... i wont know if i am flirting or not... but i darn right hope i'm not... coz that would be really bad... but i got this totally bad feeling like i doooooo.... *wails in despair* sooooooooo sorry... everything i say is for real... so does that count as flirting?? someone do me a favour and define flirting for me...

camp tomorrow... i wonder if i will survive it or not... cos i had this dream... i wonder if my dreams are phophetic?? ok... digressing already... but... you see, i had this dream that i dies at camp... talk about morbid~! and it was so real and quite disturbing... my sub-consicous must have picked up my fears... *worried look* so scared... okok... so i'm trying to relax and hope that i'll dream of sanzo.. can u believe that i'll hafta go without staring at pics of sanzo for 3 days... count them... 3 whole days... i'll die! at least camp got grace who likes saiyuki too... can talk to her abut how cute sanzo is and all that... teehee... and summore can try to presuade her to sing *for real*....

ok... NOW yy tells me that brian wasnt over at her house yesterday.. which means that i COULD haf called her! so pissed... i'll miss talking to her... sigh... aiyar... brian arh... can u plz have a routine that u follow?? like go to her house every saturday?? y u haf to go and change your schedule??

ok... i do not know wad the fuss is all about... i ask you... wad's so wrong wif my sister watching queen of the damned? quote *it's so dark and creepy and shadow-like... and you cant see anything* *insert whinny type of voice* unquote... parents... wad do they know? i can hear them now... *who gave this to you to watch? christine...?* che... gimme a god-damn break! everyone chooses wad they wanna do and my sister chose to watch it... which she likes btw... it's not my fault she likes it... and darn rite is not my fault that she's watching it... i didnt hold a gun to her head and force her to watch it, did i? no, sirree...

same with the saiyuki and neopets... especially neopets... but saiyuki is creeping higher and higher on my sis's priority list and parents are starting to nag AGAIN... neopets... *she stares at the computer until her eyes pop out..., it's your fault, you introduced her to it... *... saiyuki... *she's listening to jap songs at window-shattering levels... she's printing out countless pics of saiyuki and wasting precious ink!... she's spending EVEN more time on the computer reading fanfics!* and worse of all... *she's spending all her money on neopets/saiyuki stuff... are u trying to bankrupt your own sister?*

i mean, i only introduced her to it... yar... but did i force her to like it? no.... so in all fairness and trying to push the blame to someone else... i say... it wasnt me! i certainly never forced her... haha... she made the choice herself!

i certainly must say that it's bloody stupid of me to waste all that blogging space to write all about my sister... she doesnt deserve that much space...

it shall always be sanzo... HE shall dominate the whole blog and juz let me drool again plz... oh no... dinner is ready... i'll have to drool over him during dinner... and sigh... i wanted to go and call yue yiao but i realised that this being a saturday.... she's most likely having her cousin over... and if i decide (being insane) to call her... it will only be *giggle* *yes, christine?? can u reply* *giggle*

bai bai

One gift, beauty rare
Full of sunshine in his hair
Eyes that droop down to his nose
He’ll glare with anger
Wherever he goes
One gift, the gift of ammo
Never ending shots, BLAMO!
A hail of bullets shall outpour
Revolver shall be empty
Nevermore!

haha... funny right??? well, in case in dun have a clue about what it's talking about, you obviously do not read saiyuki... it's about sanzo... MY sanzo-sama... in case you are wondering... i did not make that up... it came from a fanfic... and it was so funny and quite true that i HAD to put it in my blog... *explodes with insane laughter*

had bad nights recently... my mind was filled with troubled dreams and that brings no rest... no rest for the weary... haiz... it's sure troubling to wake up suddenly in the middle of the night... disorientated... without a clue to wad time it is... only the light of the moon shining on the bedcovers... u rub your eyes... trying hard to remember the dream you had... was it so bad that you HAD to wake up? ... or was it too good to be true?... as the dream revisits you again... you remember.... and sigh... you lie back down... and listen to the gentle sound of your sister breathing next to you... and you wonder why she's able to sleep so soundly.... like a pig... and even your loud sighs cannot wake her... it's ... it's DARN rite irritating! she moves... and mumbles in her sleep... you strain to hear.... wad's that??? neopets... figures... must be figuring out some reealllyyyyyy difficult money-making scheme again... haiz... u wonder... why not saiyuki? she's as crazy over saiyuki as you are... then again... saiyuki's not her number 1 priority... it is and always will be neopets... you sigh again... why... and a sudden craving starts... first growing in your stomach... until your whole mind is focused on that craving... and suddenly you wonder WAD the HELL is that craving... no... it's not eggtarts... that craving got settled a few days ago... and you wonder... WHEN will be the next time you get to eat eggtarts... and u realise... that STUPID eggtart craving is going to ruin your life... it has totally taken over your life... every waking moment of your life is spent thinking about eating the BLOODY eggtart.. WHY the hell did i have to dream of Sanzo feeding me EGGTARTS...

see... see why i have sleepless nights? it's all spent on thinking about eggtarts...

*massive sweatdrop*

i have officially gone insane...

*goes off mumbling about finding eggtarts*

i feel so tired and my legs are killing me... i HATE rush hour... people have no consideration when they are trying to rush back home... are they trying to set the fastest to reach home from work record?? i mean, if the bus is so full its busting, then why bother to try to squeeze in and make the bus so cramped and crowded that you can smell the person next to you's breath.. i just do not get it... here i was waiting for the bleeding bus and then people are sighing and looking pointingly at their watch... and i just want to go up to them and ask... will constant staring at your watch make the bus come any faster? i dont think so. so... people who have their parents fetch you home... count your blessings that you never get to experience the torture of rush hour...

and... furthermore... the minute i reach home... the phone calls start coming in... can u bloody idiots spare a thought for the person who just came home and has a super gigantic headache that is threatening to explode outta her skull??? i'm not ms-know-everything-about-the-cook's-badge so why the HELL are you asking me all this? just the fact that you are asking me all these stupid questions is evidence that you were not listening to the instructions given earlier and also means that you did not hand up the proposal before hand... therefore resulting in the asking of all this questions... okok... anyone who reads this... i'm hoping you wont think im pissed off at you, it's just that i need to vent before it gets so bad that i scream bloody murder at the whole lot of you

hold me
kiss me
love me
kill me

sigh... it's said that money can't buy happiness... but during times like this, i think that there might be some sort of truth in the "money CAN buy happiness" if not... then i would not be able to get all my saiyuki stuff and i would NOT be this happy...

i like the irony of things... but u muz admit that sometimes things juz get a little too confusing for u... life is full of crap... but i guess most of the time is wad u make wif your life that's crap, rite? confusing? it gets worse...

the problem wif my life is that i'm too cynical... ok... so maybe not that cynical... but i realized that i tend to take an indifferent view of life... (btw, i'm not brainwashed by romeo and juliet, it's juz the straight facts) .. haha... u think... who does christine think she's kidding... christine's like always laughing her fool head off and gushing on and on about how cute sanzo and Yue are... her life's full of happiness and cheerfulness and uncountable joy... gimme a bucket as i want to puke... what's on the outside may not nessarily be what is inside... hmm... so i may be a little of a sadist... when i laugh at ppl's failures... but i really cannot take it when i see people who dun deserve it get what they want... so naturally i'll be happy when they lose it... sadist?? i think so.

my greatest sin i think... has got to be pride... pride comes b4 a fall... that i'm clear... how many times have i fallen? i've got like the greatest ego this side of the equarter... few people can rival my ability to boast about my expoilts... ok... so i sound really bad and i'm not doing anything to make it better but... u must admit i have few good points that few possess...

our faults and our skills... make us who we are... hard to change, isnt it? story of my life...

When I'm alone, tomorrow feels far away.
And I must go over still into the darkness of dawn
If I try to play it straight, it will no doubt fail,
And tonight it won't go well between us again.
You can't see all of my hard efforts, because it's only result
Is that it makes no sense. It really is a "tightrope".
More effort, more damage--this is my daily life.
Taking a cynical attitude may give me some comfort...
Hiding myself, heated and irritated; living only a short time.

my sis is sometimes so irritating... i mean, i for one need at least a few minutes online and she cant even give me that... i mean, does the computer belong to her??? noooo... i dun think so... so y is it that whenever i go on for a mere 10 minutes... she starts harping on the fact that my time is over???

the mysteries of the universe... so going on wif the mysteries of the universe... i shld ask... romeo and juliet is such a nice book... but when analysed and probed... it becomes a book of constant torture and pain...

next mystery... why do i submit to my sister when i can beat the crap outta her?? is it i'm too nice hence always being pushed around?? ...

mystery no.2... why is my sister always insisting that nataku is cute?? when it's plain obvious that he's not??

mystery no.3.. why does homura wear such a urm... ugly cloak... i mean, if u got it, fluant it... and he's obviously got a great bod... so why does he cover his gorgeous abs wif that thing???

okok,... this is getting boring... i mean, all this mysteries will probably want me to go on and on and on, thinking about it and then... the whole day will b spent thinking about it... and i'm blabbling, rite???

eggtarts... eggy eggy eggtarts... finally,i get to eat eggtarts in real life... hahaha... my mum bought eggtarts.... no need for sanzo to feed me eggtarts animore... coz y...i rather eat them wif my own hands... drool... drool... *moves away from computer to get the eggtarts b4 drool starts pouring out)*

*finishes eggtarts* omigod... i cant believe it... blasphemy~! cant believe it... i rather eat eggtarts myself than get sanzo to feed me the eggtarts... *horrified shriek*...cant believe i think eggtarts are more important than sanzo... *slides down chair and groans* i'm losing it,... so back to the mystery of me giving the computer to my sister... y.y.y.y.y... i mean, i can beat the holy crap outta her... but still... BUT... i let her haf the computer wif nothing more than a *here, your turn????* *i'm losing it... i muz b getting old... senile...*

ok... enuf for the day... i shall procede to run to the laptop (without internet) and drool at the sight of sanzo's gorgeous bod... buaiz

was reading my past blogs and i realized sumthin-- i always tend to start a blog wif the words *i cant take it animore* which techincally i feel is pretty much true and sums up my entirely existance... ok... so i made a trip to taka today and guess wad... i paid for the deposit for the saiyuki calendars... then it started to rain... and the stairs were slippery and guess wad... i slipped and fell... and worse... i hit my leg but juz skimmed it... i hit my mouth... giving new meaning to the words *bloody mouth* do u noe how gross it is when blood and saliva mix in large quantities?? mayb im scaring or grossing u out...

haiz... i watched harry potter yesterday but i tot that even thou it was better than the first one, the whole show was good... but it still cant beat the book... pretty good try thou... i muz say that they did an excellent job since it is quite hard to reproduce everything that is written in the book...

arghh... cant believe that *reload 2* is coming out only next year... in march summore... how could they expect me to wait that long!!!! HOW could they? *moans my fate* and the gaiden 2 is also going to come out... but... BUT... no one noes when!!!! Arghh... could juz wring sum1's neck...

today's sonya bday... so happy birthday... sonya...

i read yy's blog and i was like wad... he got her a necklace??? that's like so nice... and sweet and totful... so hmm... WHAT the hell are u waiting for, josh??? the sky to fall on your head??? no lar... juz kidding but *hint hint* a certain girl will b pretty happy if u manage to get the saiyuki backgammon... haha... anithing also can lar... how about a chinese comic??? * hopeful look* sign... dreams MAY come true...

*Even though I still don't understand the meaning of "eternity,"
something starts anew when it becomes memories.
Even now, I dream about you at times,
in the nights full of peaceful stars.
You turned towards me and were about to say something,
and that shadow is going to disappear in the morning light.
I couldn't even say, "I want to stay with you forever,"
but to only wave in silence, at that time*

i cant take it animore~!!!! life is so screwed or sumthin... i dun noe but somebody up there wishes to make my life totally unpredictable n supppa confusing... i mean, i had the whole freaking week planned out from monday to sunday and suddenly... my plans r all screwed up... yupz... the joy of life...

aniwae, forgotten to tell u but i sumtimes think MING HUI can b pretty unfair... like i told u already... YUE is so cute and he's mine ( along wif Sanzo tt is) and wad does ming hui haf to say to tt??? she says... YUE is hers... and we were spending this whole conversation on who YUE belongs to... and i kept on saying he was mine... then finally... i said he was mine to the power of infinity but that still didnt stop her... haiyar... wad stopped us was that we were talking on msn and there was another person... LINDA... and we stopped bcoz she got irritated... and said that BOTH sanzo and YUE belonged to her... haha... but that can never happen coz i say the Sanzo is forever mine... and YUE *insert wicked laugh*

cant take it animore.... aniwae, i juz think that life is truly not worht living... parents keep on nagging about washing the dishes and going to sleep... i juz cant take it...

i today went to school to complete the orientation stuff for guides for next year... haiz... i bet that we r the only CCA that starts so early... we started right after exams...

aniwae, i really should make a mental note not to call yueyiao on saturday nights... she always out on dates... no lar... it's juz that her cousin, brian, comes to their house to eat after playing their weekly game of badminton... that hor, i always seem to call at the particular moment that she comes home or sumthin like that... and then, she's not really concerntrating on wad i'm saying... (hu says she can multi-task is always mistaken) the thing is she pays more attention to her cousin than to me~! UNFAIR~! hahaha... no lar, it's juz that im talking to her, the the next minute im talking to thin air as she decides to answer brian's questions or to scream at him...

so, today i called and it was the same senerio... her screaming and giggling on the phone, only half paying attention to my words... wad's a girl to do?? and then when i jokingly complained, she said *ok..., u talk to brian* and then he was telling me that yy is always psycho... and then suddenly there was a loud snorting noise... which he claims yy did... but it turned out to b her sister that made that noise... and then, while i was talkin to yy, i could hear brian on the other phone and he purposely making his voice sound funny... it was quite funny... (the bad point of hafing more than one phone is that ppl tend to add sound effects when others are hafing a conversation)

okok, i gotta go. and yupz, yy's so funny... haiz...

*i dun wanna die*
*then u shld haf neva been born*

good rite... i figured that makes a lot of sense... u noe, i did the test at the back of the saiyuki fan book thingie, it's like a personality test thing again... and guess wad... i can get either gojyo or sanzo... so tt means that nyahahaha.... my personality quite similar... but in the end got gojyo... not too bad lar... at least it's one of the four...

do u know that i think my pimples start to pop up when i get really stressed? i mean, a few days ago, this pimple poped right out in the middle of my forehead... i'm talking dead centre... like right in the bloody middle of my forehead...it looks like Sanzo's *holy pimple* i tell u, it's so red... then hor, today in the morning it was ok... looked like it was going to disappear for good... then wad happens... got stressed out abt decisions to buy saiyuki stuff and running around trying to find yy's textbook... then after we found her textbook, i go back and look in the mirror and guess wad???~!!!! the pimple looks even bigger and like it's gonna explode ani minute~!!!!! so im trying my hardest to destress, then it'll go away... good luck to me

today... was super funnnnnnneeeee... haha, went to taka wif yy... and we went to eat at this supa chao expensive restaurant... which we later regretted... it was not that the food wasnt good... it was great... but BUT... we chao regretted it when we when to kino...

c... we saw the saiyuki fan guide book... and we also found out we could order saiyuki 2003 calenders from there... but we had to leave a deposit... and we HAD no more money... not enuf that is... so sad... and we also saw this jap mag zero sum... 16 dollars.,.. so thick but all in jap... got only a few pages of saiyuki... but they looked so hot...

so we decided to order the calendar another day and we went to pay for the guide book... then hor... we so happily went to the mrt... going down the escalator, yy suddenly goes... *christine... where is my physics book?* coz both of us were carrying our physics textbook and she saw mine but not hers... then she goes *crap, i left it at the counter when we were paying for it* then, she n i went back all the way to kino... on the way... she kept muttering *crap, how can i b so stupid* then i suddenly commented... *u had better hope it's there... i mean,can u imagine if sum1 found it?* then she went * omigod...*... know y? coz she likes to scribble stuff that may seem a bit... urmm... obsessive... on her textbooks... and she wrote sumthing like *die (insert teacher's name)*... can u imagine wat would happen if sum1 found it? plus, there was scribbling like *kenren taishou... tenpo...* ani1 who picks it up might thing that she is mad~! then hor, i was laughing so hard... she too.. i mean, wad WOULD the person think? we were laughing and running... i bet ppl tot we WERE mad... it was juz incredibly funny but u hAD to b there to know... she kept on saying... * can u imagine if they make an announcement like will the person who left a physics textbook on the counter with the words *kenren taishou* plz come to the counter...* haha... but really, we were all panicky but also laughing like mad at that time that i questioning my state of sanity



ok... gotta go... my sister needs the net.. blog more later

Pissed..... and so not loving it... ani1 dare cross my path and i tell u the thing u c lying on the floor will be that person covered... no drenched.. in a rich crimson red... and there will b a figure standing there... looking at the dear corpse and laughing... not wickedly, but amused-like...

i cant take it animore... all those i've pissed off can go and knock themselves on the wall, c if i care... i'd even point out to u the nearest wall to go and kill yourself... go ahead... i dun cARE... i'd juz stand there and laugh hysterically... today was bad enuf... and then u had to go and accuss me of the most ridiculus thing... did u think i would care about your petty disputes?? y drag me into any of this... dun u think i haf better more worthwhile things to do wif my time... har??? to c who's rite and who's wrong... there IS no rite or wrong... there's only a senseless feeling of arrogrance if u've won... and i advise the both of u to SLEEP on it and NOT involve me...

i am wat i am... dun try to change me to fit the image you've created of me... u'd juz b extremely disappointed bcoz i dun give ONE hack of a care to whoever i piss off.. if u tell me that i've gone and pissed u off, i'd juz smile and tell u to get knocked down by a speeding CAR... damn it... i dun care abt your problems... that is between the both of u... and i dun want to get dragged down by your differences...... so stop ASKING me wad u should do and shouldnt... i cant make that choice for u... sorry... u juz hafta face up to reality and solve the problem on your OWN... comprende? understand? ming bai? dun make me the middleman

today was yet another day of endless mental torture that no human being shld b allowed to go thru... i had chemistry... and i was paying attention... (in case u dun believe me)

mrs hoo was telling us abt tar... about where it came from... and then she told us that the number one cause of lung cancer is smoking... u noe... all the tar and stuff... and then i went "omigod"... the first tot that i had was "Sanzo's gonna die!" after all, he and gojyo smoke like there's no tomolo~! then, i realized how stoooopid i was being, there are guys from an anime show for crying out loud... they cant die... after all, the main characters cant die... rite??? therefore, the loves of yueyiao's and my life will technically not die... (but hor... homura died~!)... but think abt it this way... sanzo and co. r going to reach the west... and stop gyumao's revival... and then suddenly... b4 they reach... sanzo and gojyo collsap on the floor... reason?? lung cancer... is that anti-climax or wad??? i mean, u expect them to die in battle wif youkai or kami or sumthin... but not bcoz of... LUNG CANCER... *cold joke*

yy wrote on her book today abt wad... i tell u wad... she wrote on the spine of the book... Kenren Taishou... and on her lit. book Tenpou Gensui... and it was so cute and all, her obsession... tsktsk...

*Why doesn't anybody ever tell me stuff like that? "I'm blue cause I'm not there with you" What?! I don't deserve it? If christine gets someone who tells her stuff like that I deserve one too*

haha... thanks josh... for making me day and making a certain sum1 so jealous... what was her name again>>> ohyar... yue yiao... haha... and yes, yy, i noe it's blaspheme that even saiyuki cant take your mind off physics... gone case, i tell u...

and yes... i haf succeeded in getting a fan like sanzo-sama's~! actually, no... i juz used me notebook to wack me sister on the head... can u believe that she said that tenpo is not cute... i tell u... she's NUTS... N. U. T. S... i'd say it again... nuts...

cant believe it... dear darling josh... y u nv listen to me when i tell u not to buy that comic??? celebrating so soon??? nvm... u so smart im sure u'd do well... u haf me blessing

the rain is falling... and i feel sleepy... still got chem to do... i wanna snuggle in my bed and sleep... but i dun feel like getting up... i keep on thinking abt this thing sonya was doing wif me and yy b4 exams started... she drew us both in jail... with a tiny old bed... and rats and gruel... and then she said we were only allowed to haf one guy with us... that's one guy each... and then... yy was like NOOOOOOO... coz u c... saiyuki already got 3 guys... (sanzo, gojyo, hakkai...) then she also want to add homura... and then she also wana add kenshin... and on and on....

me... i;m satisified with only sanzooooo.... did u know i had a really good dream... it had sumthing to do wif eggtarts... he was feeding me eggtarts... WAD"S up with the eggtarts??????????

yy... cant believe u r so morbid... but i think if u read the fanfic abt how badly sanzo mistreated goku... i think u might use sanzo's own fan and hit him wif it... or mayb shoot him to death... i felt like murdering him too... and after that, i tot... BLASPHEME-- i would nv murder my precious sanzo.... but i had really morbid thots...

now off to play in the rain... not really... did u noe i coloured me hair blonde??? not a good colour on me.... i'm thinking brown... wad u think?

oh my... i'm going to set the world's fastest typing in the shortest period of time... my sister wans me to give her the computer in 2 mins... that's barely enuf time for me to write all i wanna write... *freaking out*

okok... so i'll juz write that i think fanfics may b very nice and all that... but i am getting a little tired of reading all those saiyuki fanfics in which poor goku is the victim and sanzo is the villian! i mean... so hot a guy he is and they make him the bad guy who breaks goku's heart all the time~! bull... and guess wad... i think the fanfics that are really funny are those that make fun of all the characters... i mean,... seriously, all those pairings... and stuff, and then i feel that homura shld juz give it a rest getting those scriptures... and suddenly i remembered... he CAN give it a rest... after all... he DIED~! i mean, did u c how cute he is and they had to KILL him off... like for wad????????

okok.... sister is drumming her fingers on the table... signalling the end of my rambling... well, it's back to the daily grind... to school, mental torture... and unspeakable agony... and horrors.... and everlasting headaches...

buaiz~!

i'm feeling so tired and irritable... and i really dread going back to school... most of all, i dread... nvm...

went for a meeting wif ms gwee at 10.30... get this 10.30, ok... and it ended at 6.00... i guess teachers really haf a lot of paperwork to take care of... i'm really glad im not a teacher... then again... i'm not even working...

at first i tot mpr was the place to sleep for camp... but then when i heard that the girls who haf not passed tentage gotta sleep in tents instead of a nice cooling air con room... i suddenly had this really bad feeling that the camp is going to be really tough... saw the programme already and it looks so packed that i think i might faint from exhaustion or sumthin

grace see is losing her touch... she tried to redraw a pic of genjo sanzo but sumhow drew the face too big and the guy in the pic ended up looking like a punk... hmm... not bad she is at drawing and at telling seriously lame-o jokes... but she's really fun...

OMIGOD~! i juz said that gracie was fun??!! wad is the world coming to??? ok, calm down...

well! i haf to start writing again... and i muz say that i hope that i'd b free tomolo... actually, wasnt even free until my chinese tuition teacher told me that no tuition tomolo since she is going back to beijing for a holiday.. then cheryl asked me to help her plan the camp, and then ming asked me to go and eat seoul garden wif her... *heehee* so popular am i....

no one is perfect but if u think u come close to prefection, then i think there muz b sumthin wrong wif u... then again, if u do admit that, then u r either very like me who believe strongly in my brilliance and great brain and capacity to accomplish wad others cannot or haf failed to do... or u r juz plain stoopid...

ok... now, in benita's blog, she strongly critizied my thinking or rather opinion (strongly critizied might b a little harsh thou). wad i haf constantly been saying is that saiyuki rocks and that anime is the only way to go... but... BUT... benita says the opposite... that the only guys worth a moment's notice is real life guys...

true, true, but... BUT... is loving a real life guy worth the potential heartbreak??? yes, i do admit it is... but wat happens when there is no one that u like??? that's the question... guys u see on tv... daniel redcliff (gladys)... brad pitt... and so on and so forth... will u ever get a chance to meet them? i dun think so.. so for now when we r so deprived being in an all girls school.. i suggest u stick to anime guys... much safer...

*i had promised u a time, a place, a date...
it's up to u to decide when and where...
no one but u can make that choice...
if i say no to your yes...
plz forgive wad i had to do...
no one tells me wad to do...
and neither shld u make the choice for me...*

the above others may not understand... but wad i say only applies to sum1 else

below is a test that i took, i wanted to paste the link and everything here but when i did, it totally messed up how my blog looked like... but then, i liked it so much that i HAD to put it here... duncha think it's quite true? :P

Child of the Sun

Your soul is hot, dramatic, and creative. Children of the sum have an intense drive to express themselves and usually will at any cost.

Being part of a royal family could get to your head. As a member of this solar system’s creating race, it’s important to have compassion for others and not give into feelings of loneliness.

Shining down on your soul is the energy of a true star. Being warm at heart is the key to this life. You will shine in any situation you adopt. Remember, the people around you are reflections. Share yourself with them and see what beautiful things unfold. You are a beautiful expression of light

so wad shall i say??? yupz, veron, i'd definately sign your guestbook, i think... hmm, so dun keep on telling me and rongsiu that we gotta sign k? :)

nette... u arh, alwaes want to b the first to sign people's guestbook? figures... *smiles*

benita... u arh, go online lar... u nv go online one, then how to update your blog?

dorothy... u shld haf a blog too... it's really fun... but sumtimes very irritating when things cant load properly

this is turning out to b a blog where i tell ppl wat i wanna tell them

hehheh... online again... i cant take it animore! i need saiyuki!!! <--obsessive is too small a word to express this)

seriously, i think i may haf really gotten outta control... u c, yueyiao was so bored today during lessons that she drew on her textbook... u noe she likes to draw prawns and bees (dun ask me y), and today was so hysterical, she drew a cigeratte (her darling gojyo's fav thing), a pork bun (cutie goku's fav food), a monocle (darling hakkai's) and a credit card (sanzo-sama's card from the three buddhas). all the items had price tags on them... and she said that the things were all hers... she was juz a bit unstable at that time i think... she wrote nyahahahaha... and i was laughing pretty hard too...

going to b pretty bz these days... cant wait for training camp to b over... glad that we r sleeping in the mpr... at least that's wad kat said sam told her... hope it's really true...

As you stand lonely in front of me
The melancholy that flows from your back captivates me
I want to embrace you with a nonchalant love
Beneath your smiling face
Only unbelievable words are baring their fangs
You are looking for love in those fragments
One day, a selfish voice humming a song will reach you
And in that very moment this world is going to change

i dun noe y i like blogging so much and it can get pretty addictive... :) try it and u'd c wad i mean...

hmm, i din noe that the saiyuki song that i liked is called Blow Winds... kinda weird, can u believe that i've been listening to the saiyuki songs since the afternoon started??/ is that obsessive or wad? no lar, juz really nice...

*Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are*

the above are lyrics from a song that i think i find quite impressionable... u noe that i was humming that when i was doing my chinese Os... my god... i cant believe that i so nuts... aniwae, i really angry that i cant find the backgammon any where in singapore... mayb i'm looking in all the wrong places....

well, i dun noe abt u but i think my blog has finally looked interesting... i mean,at first it was pretty boring... well, thankies to my sister (html guru),but i not sure if i can even put pics or sumthin... i think it might b possible but i really am so not sure... and my sister insists that teaching me html is like teaching Sanzo not to hit Goku on the head with his official fan of punishment-- meaning, well, virtually impossible...

but then, i was thinking, i can learn it too and i juz fiddled around and *poof* i did it... changed quite a lot without Cheryl's help, so quite happy... especially since i need to learn html for the wee kim wee challenge

i haf finally lost it... muz b the fact that im listening too much to saiyuki songs... u noe, i think that music blasting out from the computer speakers might very well damage the brain...

*I got a cute little gojyo one, and a Sanzo in his skin tight leather suit!!! Yes Christine... we weep at the loss...*

*Ha oh and I found this site where they have quite alot of screencaps of your darling Sanzo sama... I give it to you if you grovel at my feet nyahahahahaha*

the above were taken from yue yiao's blog... grovel??? i hardly think so... i have my pride *flicks back hair* me? weep? u shld noe tt i only cry when certain urmm, people who shall remain nameless, piss me off like really badly... and normally, i'd punch sum1, but when i feel that that person is really disappointed in me, i'd feel pissed and sad, THEN i'll cry...

Sanzo is hot , gotta admit tt, but today when i feel like my brain has turned comatose, i'll not blab on and on abt how great the four saiyuki boys r...

*u laughed and u smiled. Something's wrong*

Bored. my life is a boring existance. i live mainly to listen to people talk (thou i talk a lot myself) and do other people's dirty work. There are very few times in my life that i appreaciate my life, and this is clearly not one of those times...

Meaningless? u might say... life cant b tt bad, no matter wad troubles u r facing, u might retort back... wake up and face reality... u idiot, life is BORING n BAD... sure sure, life can b good, sometimes, but no matter how much proof u dig up abt life being WORTH LIVING in general, i'm still sticking to the fact that life is BORING, thank u very much

it's not as if i long for some adventure or excitment... heck, i haf too many things to worry abt. my time is much too precious to b spent thinking abt boredom, it's juz tt sometimes it hits u tt being bored is better than being dead...

Ok, so now i seem really morbid and down on life, but u shld noe tt i was very bored when i wrote this... i normally have a very indifferent view of life

Did another saiyuki test... personality test... (1 being the closest, thou i muz say i disagree wif the first one, i dun think i'm very calm when faced wif pressuring circumstances, more liable to punch the nearest person)
#1: Cho Hakkai
#2: Genjo Sanzo
#3: Nii Jieni
#4: Shien
#5: Dokugakuji
#6: Gyokumen Koushi
#7: Kougaiji
#8: Sha Gojyo
#9: Son Goku
#10: Zenon
#11: Yaone
#12: Homura
#13: Chin Issou
#14: Lirin
#15: Kanzeon Bosatsu

i was like so excited today... i mean, did u noe wad torture i put myself thru studying chinese??? (physically and mentally) and it's finally OVER... sing it loud sing it proud... over, nananana elmo song... over... over... now... i can relax and juz let myself stare at saiyuki all day long...

hmm, did this quiz and was wondering if it was really true... top 10 saiyuki guys who r the bez to sleep wif... and i was juz thinking: man! y do i always get hakkai? not tt he isnt cute n all tt...

oh, and i wouldnt haf known tt tory and julian were urmm, kinda gay, until ming told me but then again, i looked at the past episodes and i realised tt Ming is rite... (im not saying she's rite all the time though, coz she aint!) but then again, YUE is so cute!!! but also so cold and *im so cool, dun wanna talk to u* kind of attitude... ya noe? but haha, sumtimes i think tt's quite attractive... but plz ok, josh, dun think tt's an excuse to act *cool* ok? it dun fit u

*another warning b4 u step into the world of insanity, DUN roll your eyes*
haizyar, tomolo got chinese Os, and i'm thinking ... wad am i doing all this studying for??? it's like so wasting my precious time or sumthin... but then again, it's all going to b over in a matter of HOURS!! *freaked out* ok, to go back to my previous obsessions.. waitaminute, i've only got ONE obsession... ~! which is nyahahahaha, Sanzo... nownow, dun roll those already overolled eyes.. that also goes to u, my dear gal.

BORED... i am, boredom can kill a person u noe, which is sumthin that i muz share wif the world, come on, u say... well, i've got another thing to share, *stress, no.1 killer* courtesy of Peggy Goh... well, can u c that im blabbling, blabbling.... *sum1 stop me*

Life is sumtimes so meaningless that i find it hard to believe that i could find joy in the most meaningless things... nvm...
so now... i haf found joy in other things ,like looking at saiyuki pictures all day long, until my sister goes and tells me, * u r nv going to go aniwhere if u juz sit here and obsess, u shld go and find a bf tt's as cute as sanzo* first tot i had... --impossible! first of all, i dun believe tt cute is a main priority, but it is a priority, secondly, there is no one in the world as cute as Sanzo! if someone out there IS as cute as him, plz email me..

ok, enuf nonsense for the day, i'll let YY go and write HER blog... Buaiz

so i cant resist, muz say wateva i wana say today, or i will not b happy! for once, i shall say it once and for all, i love saiyuki!!!

i mean, did u c how cute genjo sanzo is??? ok, dun label me as despo when u dun even know me, but if u watch the anime or read the manga, u'd agree that all four of them take the word cute to greater heights! four? u ask..., i knew it, confused already... well, u r going to stay confused! nyahahaha....... ok, i'd explain, this anime is a twisted version of journey to the west wif the characters all really different! like they r so much cuter! haha... sanzo 's hair looks really soft... i'd really like to touch it~! omigod, did u see tt guy's abs, to die for , i tell u! bouncy bouncy~! <--i seem very nuts already

hmm, can juz imagine the reactions of certain ppl when i post this...

Yueyiao-- Goyjo is so HOT!!! at least christine's got good taste
Benita-- Boy crazy, as always... haha, wat would tt brown haired guy say??!!
Dorothy-- *blink blink*
Jing Hui-- hmm, is she always this nuts?
Andrew-- i leave for japan for juz a while and wat happens???
Gladys-- it's not i want to say, but i really muz say, wat is the meaning of this?
RongSiu-- my PL has officially checked into the loony bin
Josh-- *sweatdrop*

Okok, so hmm, im kinda new at this, ok, so NOT true! i like already haf sumthin like this somewhere in the web, but i think i lost the password or sumthin. aniwae, this is juz for me to sprout off any rubbish tt ani sane person will not read... ( privately, i think u muz b mad if u want to read this, but no one is stopping u ) so go ahead, read this and may the world noe who i am~!